oh man.... i have been so sooooooo suai recently ...... i guesss this year is the worst year in my 17 years of life... :(i have beeen 'tortured ' in school and @ home ....
for the past one/ two weeks in school.... i don understand a single word.... i don understand the lecture .... tutorials and even the lap experiments..... oh ....how am i going to survive ??? i just realize maybe working is more fun !!! hehe !!!! coz you don need to use your brain .... yep i am very lazy !!!!
but lucky i met lots of friends there .... the guys in my class are cute and the gals are just lovely ppl !!! :)

and @ home.... had a big fight with sis... in end im the one at the losing end.... :( my sis kept the FLAT IRON !!!! oh god.... how am i going to go out and go school ???? this really sucks !!!! she even lock her room door so that i cant use the internet !!! this is so torturing ..... must i listen to her and obey her instructions just becoz she is older ??? im not a dog who just listen with thinking ..... hey i am a human being leh.... i got a mind of my own and i know wat i wanna do and wat i don..... don force mi to do things i don like ..... everybody is just soooo f-king terrible......

anyway..... i left estique for two weeks already..... and i miss the ppl ...the salon soo much..... i don know why ..but whenever i think about the times we spent together playing...chatting.... tears just start to fall...... my working experince in estique was so different from the times when i work as a promoter and @ book cafe !!!! i just feel that i am so attached to estique.... emm.... altough lots of ppl left the salon but i believe everything is gonna be fine very soon !!! i hope they are missing mi too hehe !!! i hope they miss my voice ... miss my whinning.... and everything !!!! there are so much fond memories that i will remember for the rest of my life.... my ppl are just so irreplacable.... really .... !!!! a group of lovely ppl .... a fantastic slon .... a perfect place to work @ !!



love, miss kowk !! :)

sorry for the lack of update ....was really too busy with school and days were soo bad that i've got no mood @ all !!! anyway ..i'm back ....being strong again ...
went to the airport today to fetch mummy !!! hehe !!! i have not been to the airport for like super long and now it looks super class ..emm..just the terminal 3 lah !!!!

things have been so bad for mi !!! since last week till now or izzit since 2008 things have changed... my life have change !!! things were bad and never good !!
today was my first day of school and i realized i enter the wrong course !! i totally have no interest in it @ all !! i told my lecturer that i wanna change course and she start telling mi its okay .... study first you might like it and she told mi all the advantages of studying this course !!! that was really nice of her ..but i didn't change my mind becoz i dont wanna waste 3 years studying sth i dont enjoy @ all !!!! and so i left the school half way !!! and now i sitting @ mac... looking @ my school website.... i called the school admission office and asked for info ..but aha.... either no vacancy or i dont meet the cut off point !!! this sucks !!!! and so too bad for mi ..i'll have to study this course for one year and see how things go !!!!i need to score for my first semenster examination in order to take a business dip !!!

i received a text from someone two days ago... it was a simple and short message ...but it brought tears to my eyes...the person thanked mi for what i've done ...it was not sth big that i did....i was touched not becoz the person said that he/she 's gonna buy mi a gift or wat... but becoz i felt the sincerity in it !!! i can feel that ++ really meant it.... really appreciate wat i've done..... i have never in my 17 years of life felt these way be4 ... never..... so i start to realize ....words can be real simple but it can just meant alot..... it was never about writing sth real long becoz short sentences make wonders too !!!!
i mean you will never know how great it feels until you really experince it !!!! And i believe hardly anybody really experince it be4.... even those who are in love..... times when your boyfriend say how important you r to them how they cant live without you ..... saying without you their life is like black and white (oopzz its a abit tooo drama ) you might feel like WOAH but did the words really moved your heart or becoz your feel WOAH becoz he said that to you and it really makes you think that you r f-king important in his life.... you will never know ..maybe he said that to all his ex too !!! STUPID !!!!

The great enemy of clear language is insincerity. When there is a gap between one's real and one's declared aims, one turns as it were instinctively to long words and exhausted idioms, like a cuttlefish spurting out ink.
George Orwell (1903 - 1950), "Politics and the English Language", 1946